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Thursday, July 22, 2010

what a yummy day

So after waking up to my son breaking my smokes I decided that I need to get out and do something. My mom bailed and didn't wanna go to taste of saskatchewan with my sister and erimas. Needless to saay we went with my grandma. Anyways after some booster juice and some dry ribs and saskatoon berry pie I was ready to go home nice and full.

Also tonight erimas went poop in the potty *!!!! Yay I am so proud. Right now he is attempting at peeing in his potty while watching the simpsons lol what a ham. Anyways I'm tired and thought I may as well squeeze a post in for today. So goodnight.
-Sarah1325

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

my day

So today was my sons 2nd birthday. His dad whined to have him today so he got him from 10 till 7. Meanwhile we cleaned the house and got rid of tons of junk. About damn time, frick at the end of the day after the trip to the gross smelling dump we were all dusty as hell. I swear that was the best shower I have ever had.

As for erimas his party at my place will be on saturday. What a spoiled little boy, he gets two birthdays. Lol oh well it will be nice to get the family semi together. That's all for now bbl

-Sarah1325

Tuesday, July 20, 2010

my baby is 2!!!!!

Well as of 1:25 AM. But nonetheless I can't believe it eeeeeee. He is growing up so damn fast its unbelievable. I sometimes just wanna go back to when he was born and really cherish it more. I was not in a good place then but now I am and well it was just so stressful back then ya know.

Anyways I'm over the moon in excitement for his party on saturday. More details to come.

Monday, July 19, 2010

mr not so sleepy

Well this marks day 3 of trying to get my toddler to bed before 10 pm. No such luck yet
Well he kinda passed out on the floor for a minute just now but meh. He is so damn hyper, talking about his trains and cars etc. Wow what a hard job being a mom is.

Anyways I would just like to have some me time tonight and piss around with my blackberry I just got back. Goodnight fellow bloggers

-Sarah1325

Hallejuah!

So the phone rings and rings and rings. I'm thinking it is another telemarketer. When they decide to leave a message and I hear its jump.ca I was fucking ecstatic! why you may ask? ...

My blackberry is back!!! all fixed and working good. Yay I have been waiting for a little over a month for this day! I'm so happy I don't have to lug around the crappy samsung cleo anymore.

So this is a good day for me so far. Oh, and my cosmo magazine came today too hazzah!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

How I became a teen mom....

Okay I'll start by warning you this is long, Very long.
It all begins in April of 2007. I was just turning 15 and in grade 9. I was introduced to this mysterious and different guy named eric by a mutual friend. So of course we talked and hung out and shortly became boyfriend and girlfriend. We started dating April 19th 2007 4 days before my 15th birthday.
I was always kind of the loner type and when he paid attention to me I felt on top of the world. Eric was always the kind of person that needed his feelings met before anyone elses, to but it bluntly he was "emo". So we quickly became serious and quickly started doing the deed if you will.

I started noticing around June 07 that he was getting demanding and picking fights over everything and anything.Foolishly I would just brush it off and move on. The fighting was constant and I would be on the phone 24/7 with him and had to say "I love you" a million times before I was let off the phone. Other things that hinted at his controlling nature were that he would always have to know where I am, even if it was so much as me shopping with my mother.

Fastforward to September 07 He proposed to me yes with a real ring, not a vending machine ring. I said yes, it was magical. That same month I went back to school and still being mind fucked clinged onto eric day and night. This is also around the time I decided "hey a baby would be just what I need to make me happy" and I convinced him to ttc. After the first month didnt work I got my period on October 6th 2007. I remember the date because Eric had begged me to go see resident evil with him.

All I remember is being cramped up in an rediculously uncomfy theatre chair. And that would be my last period for nearly a year.
Mid October 2 of Eric's Aunties dies by a head on collision on the highway. Needless to say he was devastated. I came over to comfort him, That is the night Erimas was conceived.
I remember it being November 5th,(The day my period was supposed to show up) here I am sitting in math class going to the bathroom every 15 minutes to check if I had started bleeding yet. "goes to the bathroom, checking undies. Is anything there? nope. Shit! I better not be pregnant"

By that time I realized I had made a huge mistake. I didnt want to be pregnant I'm only 15!!! On the 7th I went with eric and a friend to the local drug store I got a rockstar energy drink and a pregnancy test, boy did that look odd. Got back to his house sure enough after 10 seconds after dipping it in a cup of urine it was a clear positive.
I was elated I was full of emotions, Holy shit! would have been the strongest one.
Eric was undecisive. He wanted me to abort. Guess what I said.... FUCK NO! This is my baby and I'm in it for the long haul.

after telling my mom (which was not very fun) she was pissed as she should have been. But soon enough by the time I was 5 weeks pregnant she was already buying baby stuff. Eric and my mother never got along. She knew he was controlling me, hell even I knew it! I wasnt ready to break it off just because of my mom.


Ill leave off right here and finish the rest tommorow. I'm tired and my eyes are kinda getting blurry.
-Sarah1325

mother effin paypal.

seriously paypal if you are gonna charge me for shit I didnt subscribe to, and say you refunded me but you know I have yet to see my 20$ magically appear in my bank account.
Im going to assume it will take a while to deposit into my bank so ive concluded I shall have some patience. we will see. Believe me I will raise hell. Yes its only 20 dollars but money is money MY MONEY. anyways,
today I got a new bathroom reader which is epic.

So that may take some stress off of that little situation. I could have gotten a canadian one but I figure, well canada isnt THAT interesting so I settled for the 12 addition. seriously these books are full of random tidbits and stories of dumb crooks silly laws and unusual stories. Im gonna just go ahead and reccomend a few.



Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Products I recommend

Aveeno Baby Diaper Rash Cream, Fragrance Free, 3.7-Ounce Tubes (Pack of 3)
this is the best diaper cream I have ever used. ever since using it Erimas has never had any diaper rashes. check it out

A lonely week

Starting last sunday, my ex and I have started alternating one week on one week off with Erimas. This week is Erics, I never knew it would be so hard and heart breaking to let him go for a week I'm 3 days in and ready to cry.
I miss my son I want him here. I know I like breaks from him but I just dont know how to deal throught this aspect of knowing I wont see him till sunday.

I was not prepared neither mentally nor physically. I swear I feel depressed, I know I know its only a week but he is my baby! my little bubs, I guees thats just a natural response though. Unless you are some crack addicted hooker that doesnt give two shits. But seriously I'm just finding it hard to find something usefull to do. Ive spent the mojority on the internet of course but really I'm spent, tired and just longing to hold erimas and hear all about the "choo choos" sigh 4 more days
-Sarah

Saturday, June 26, 2010

oh comon lets do something!!!

Seriously Its a nice day out and not fucking pouring rain and I wanna shop or at least window shop buttttttttttt noooooooooo, my mother has to be all crabby and bitchy just bcause AF came for a visit. well thats retarded. Now ive spent most of the day on BG with nothing to do and noone to hang with. Fuck sakes its summer holidays I wanna get out there and do shit instead of being stuck in this damn boring ass house.
sigh guess I could go check out whats on the television but usually there is shit all on saturdays.
all I got out of today was a booster juice and some timbits. very dissapointing, no baby here to play with fuck I need a life lol.
-Sarah1325

Thursday, June 24, 2010

needing a break

I have an almost 2 year old and believe me I do need a break from his terrible twos. I sometimes get so frustrated because he does not listen to a word I say. But you know as soon as he's gone to his dads I want him back. sigh that must be my mother instincts. Parenting is tough shit and I never would have imagined it would be this hard, it sure was a wakeup call to get my act together and be responsible.
anyways the court consent order will be done soon, we switch 2 days on and off now and a week and a week in summer which would be now because we are both done school. I dont know how i'm gonna handle not seeing him for a week but I have a strong feeling eric will want me to take him some days during his week LOL, men.
Anyways I'm just so glad miserable ass school mis done and ive gotten no calls so I've assumed I passed my classes. whew! So next year grade 11 and 12 courses! Finally. well thats all for now
-Sarah1325

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

can you SHUT UP

Okay little sister really, what pisses me off most is when i'm talking and you with your big FAT mouth tell me to shut up. Really? i'm soo fucking tired of your wining and bitching. Also on that note stop swearing around my son. FFS he is very impressionable at the age of 2. Do you need a smack upside the head to get it?
I know you are 15 but come the fuck on do I need to wash your mouth out with soap???
-Sarah1325

"ghetto talk"

I cannot stand people who talk like dis and be catchin each oder on dat flipside etc. and the saying back it up bitch or all this opther slang. I'm 18 I should know this stuff. Half the time I cant even keep up with the the fuck others are saying ehh this world is gonna be over run with illiterates, thats all
-Sarah1325

Welcome

Welcome to my blog. This will mostly contain rants and raves because thats apparently what i'm good at lol. so hope to update this often.
-Sarah1325